You are faithful in ways I will never fully understand
Even when I experience a drought, finding myself weak
Ashamed of who I am because I cannot seem to accomplish anything
Speaking words, loose words, empty words that have no real depth,
Because I feel no real depth
Wishing I could avoid people so my lacking would not be seen
Not from embarrassment, for everyone goes through dry times,
but wishing to avoid people because I have nothing to offer them
How can I say such a thing
I do have You that I can offer always,
but I have not filled up with You so it is not You that comes out
It is mindlessness that pours out,
the jumbled stutterings of one who is tired
and has taken equal care of the body
as she has the spirit lately
Yet no matter my condition You stay the same
You remain faithful
Placing people around me in the strangest of places,
people who speak words that I know are prompted by You,
even though they themselves would not recognize it
they would think their words were chosen by them
but I recognize the message in their words
A consistent message shared by the voice on the radio,
the Wal Mart associate,
the book I "just happened" to browse through,
the child speaking innocent words not even well thought out,
all from different sources, one doesn't even know the other,
but they all speak the same message
The one You want me to hear
because You are faithful even when I'm not
Even as I struggle, You remain constant
Never changing, always offering Your words that I need
Sending them through messengers unaware
You are faithful in ways I will never fully understand
II Timothy 2:13--"If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself."
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